The First Man is the latest release from Romantic Fiction and Family Sagas writer Alex Kelly, born in Italy but lives in Ireland with her husband, two children and a cat named Oscar. She’s a bibliophile, a Yogi, a lover of English literature and a baking enthusiast. The First Man continues her tradition of writing and heartwarming and emotional stories.
Do you want to know what it means to live like me?
It means being forced not to look at him, not to touch him, not to be left alone in the same room as him.
Not to seek him out. Not to want him.
Not to love him.
Do you know how it feels to spend your entire life pretending to be someone else? Do you know what it’s like to love someone who doesn’t want to be loved?
I’ll tell you how it feels.
It feels as if you’re living in constant torment: you know which path you should follow, but you also know that, if you follow that path, you can never turn back.
And I can’t do that to him.
Every day I come back, because I know that he’s waiting for me.
Every day I promise him that he will never have to live without me.
Do you know what it means to live like me?
It means being forced not to touch him, not to kiss him, not to be able to leave the room while he’s still in it.
Not to breathe him in, not to lust after him.
Not to love him.
Do you know how it feels to spend your entire life pretending to be someone else? Do you know what it’s like to love the only person you’re not allowed to love?
I’ll tell you how it works.
You can’t seem to feel anything other than him; when you walk away, you know that you’re turning your back on the only thing that’s good in your life.
Yet you still walk away.
Every day I leave, knowing that he will be standing there, watching.
Every day I ask him to promise me that I will never have to live without him.
The First Man is the second book in the From Connemara With Love, but it’s a fantastic stand-alone novel. A male x male romance sees the two main characters Shane and Andy navigate their relationship going from friends to lovers. With a fair few bumps on the way.
What makes The First Man such an enjoyable read is how well written the characters are. Not just Shane and Andy but the minor characters are all really strong and individual each adding their own unique purpose to telling Shane and Andy’s story. It’s also extremely refreshing to see a more mature MxM romance rather than it focusing on younger teen males, as it gives the characters a lot more depth.
It’s angsty, emotional but heart warming read that you will easily read within one sitting because you become so invested in the story.
You can get a copy of the book here!